Week 3 post 1: All too well

"All Too Well (10 Minute Version) (Taylor's Version) (From The Vault)" 

I walked through the door with you, the air was cold (juxstaposes warm and cold, TS used to find warmth and comfort with JG) 
But something 'bout it felt like home somehow 
And I left my scarf there at your sister's house 
And you've still got it in your drawer, even now 
Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze (she was naïve and he seemed warm and kind) 
We're singing in the car, getting lost upstate 
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place (many small endings, infusing relationship with inevitable end even from the very beginning) 
And I can picture it after all these days 
 
And I know it's long gone and 
That magic's not here no more 
And I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all 
Oh, oh, oh 
 
'Cause there we are again on that little town street 
You almost ran the red 'cause you were lookin' over at me 
Wind in my hair, I was there 
I remember it all too well 
 
Photo album on the counter, your cheeks were turning red 
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-sized bed 
And your mother's telling stories 'bout you on the tee-ball team 
You taught me 'bout your past, thinking your future was me 
And you were tossing me the car keys, "fuck the patriarchy"(this line is the first lyric change from the original all too well, and if it had been released as this original version it would be the first time taylor released an explicit song. He put up a feminist pretense but we learn later how manipulative and disrespectful he is, especially because the keychain fell to the ground representing the falling façade) 
Key chain on the ground, we were always skipping town 
And I was thinking on the drive down, any time now 
He's gonna say it's love, you never called it what it was 
'Til we were dead and gone and buried 
Check the pulse and come back swearing it's the same 
After three months in the grave (she dated gylenhaal for 3 months, saying the relationship was doomed from the start) 
And then you wondered where it went to as I reached for you 
But all I felt was shame and you held my lifeless frame 
 
And I know it's long gone and 
There was nothing else I could do 
And I forget about you long enough 
To forget why I needed to 
 
'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night 
We're dancing 'round the kitchen in the refrigerator light 
Down the stairs, I was there 
I remember it all too well 
And there we are again when nobody had to know 
You kept me like a secret, but I kept you like an oath (In all too well short film the male lead pushes away the female lead’s hand at a dinner party, like he’s ashamed of her despite her trying her best) 
Sacred prayer and we'd swear 
To remember it all too well, yeah 
 
Well, maybe we got lost in translation 
Maybe I asked for too much 
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece 
'Til you tore it all up 
Running scared, I was there 
I remember it all too well 
And you call me up again just to break me like a promise 
So casually cruel in the name of being honest (one of Swift’s most famous lyrics, shows how manipulative JG was in that he tried to pretend to be the honest, rational one when he was just being cruel) 
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here 
'Cause I remember it all, all, all 
 
They say all's well that ends well, but I'm in a new Hell 
Every time you double-cross my mind 
You said if we had been closer in age maybe it would have been fine (she was 20, he was 29) 
And that made me want to die 
The idea you had of me, who was she? 
A never-needy, ever-lovely jewel whose shine reflects on you 
Not weeping in a party bathroom 
Some actress asking me what happened, you 
That's what happened, you 
You who charmed my dad with self-effacing jokes 
Sipping coffee like you're on a late-night show 
But then he watched me watch the front door all night, willing you to come 
And he said, "It's supposed to be fun turning twenty-one" (similar to The Moment I Knew, refrences how Gylenhaal didn’t show up to her 21st birthday) 
 
Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it 
I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it 
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own 
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone 
But you keep my old scarf from that very first week 
'Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me(brings back the scarf motif from the beginning of the song) 
You can't get rid of it 
'Cause you remember it all too well, yeah 
'Cause there we are again when I loved you so 
Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known 
 
It was rare, I was there 
I remember it all too well 
Wind in my hair, you were there 
You remember it all 
Down the stairs, you were there 
You remember it all 
It was rare, I was there 
I remember it all too well(she was gaslit into believing her perspective on the relationship was wrong and she has to remind herself what happened) 
 
And I was never good at telling jokes, but the punch line goes 
"I'll get older, but your lovers stay my age"(gylenhaal continues to date people around the same age taylor was when this song was written despite his own aging, not good at telling jokes because the punchline is true)  

From when your Brooklyn broke my skin and bones 
I'm a soldier who's returning half her weight 
And did the twin flame bruise paint you blue?(Swift and JG are twin fire signs, asking if he too was hurt by the end of their relationship) 
Just between us, did the love affair maim you, too? 
'Cause in this city's barren cold 
I still remember the first fall of snow 
And how it glistened as it fell(relationship was dead, gone, and buried like the original reference to leaves, signified the death of the relationship but the purity of starting fresh) 
I remember it all too well 
 
Just between us, did the love affair maim you all too well? 
Just between us, do you remember it all too well? 
Just between us, I remember it (Just between us), all too well 
Wind in my hair, I was there, I was there 
Down the stairs, I was there, I was there 
Sacred prayer, I was there, I was there 
It was rare, you remember it all too well 
Wind in my hair, I was there, I was there 
Down the stairs, I was there, I was there 
Sacred prayer, I was there, I was there 
It was rare, you remember it 
Wind in my hair, I was there, I was there 
Down the stairs, I was there, I was there 
Sacred prayer, I was there, I was there 
It was rare, you remember it 
Wind in my hair, I was there, I was there 
Down the stairs, I was there, I was there 
Sacred prayer, I was there, I was there 
It was rare, you remember it (repetition with a quiet echo, ghostly flashback. Outside looking in perspective as relationship was put in the past)